A Day In the Life of Thaya Playa

Name taken out to protect the person

bldndprcd (9:39:12 PM): hey
(9:39:24 PM): hi
bldndprcd (9:39:31 PM): how be it?
(9:39:40 PM): um, good?
(9:39:41 PM): you?
bldndprcd (9:39:48 PM): eh, decent
bldndprcd (9:39:56 PM): what ever happened between us?
(9:40:28 PM): um, you got a gf and completely ignored me until i gave up trying to be friends with you
bldndprcd (9:40:40 PM): hmm, yeah, that sounds right
(9:40:43 PM): and now shes going out with some1 and he still talks to me anyways
bldndprcd (9:41:12 PM): yeah, ****
(9:41:43 PM): so why are you asking me? you know damn well why we dont talk
bldndprcd (9:41:56 PM): cuz i was just making sure
(9:42:07 PM): and i almost thought i should have expected better from you
(9:42:15 PM): sry, guess i was wrong
bldndprcd (9:42:20 PM): yeah, guess you were
bldndprcd (9:43:10 PM): well, im happy to hear that that is indeed the reason
(9:43:35 PM): ......ok? is that all you have to say? i really dont understand you.....
bldndprcd (9:43:52 PM): cuz people have been saying some fucked up stuff
(9:44:03 PM): what?
bldndprcd (9:44:41 PM): first one i heard was that **** gave you an altimatum
(9:44:49 PM): well, believe me i dont sit around sending out ryan hate mail if thats what ur getting to
(9:44:52 PM): what?
bldndprcd (9:44:57 PM): i know it
(9:45:06 PM): **** did what?
bldndprcd (9:45:12 PM): ultimatum
(9:45:30 PM): like?
bldndprcd (9:45:46 PM): either you stop hanging wit me or stop dating him
bldndprcd (9:46:03 PM): that didnt sound right, so i couldnt believe that one
(9:46:25 PM): that never happened first of all, neither of us are the jealous type. i hung out with ****** just the other day
bldndprcd (9:46:41 PM): oh, i knew that wasnt true
bldndprcd (9:47:01 PM): then someone says to me.....its cuz im friends with **** and *********
bldndprcd (9:47:11 PM): and you didnt approve of that
bldndprcd (9:47:33 PM): that one didnt make sense either
(9:47:40 PM): what? i used to be friends with *********, i never said any of this so whoever you are talking is is sorely mistaken
bldndprcd (9:47:58 PM): i know
bldndprcd (9:48:17 PM): i just wanted to make sure
(9:48:41 PM): i mean, i dont know what people want from me. i be as sincere as i can and get kicked in the ass for it
(9:48:53 PM): w/e i dont really care what people tell you, you know what happened,
bldndprcd (9:49:11 PM): yep, i do
(9:49:55 PM): alright then, hope ur having a nice summer, and have a nice life
bldndprcd (9:50:16 PM): and yourself
(9:50:44 PM): just one thing......why did you IM me?
bldndprcd (9:51:16 PM): hmm, cuz i wanted to make sure what i heard wasnt true, not a big deal really
(9:51:26 PM): honestly, do you get ur jollies off of pissing people off?
bldndprcd (9:51:50 PM): haha, not you, but i have in the past
(9:52:14 PM): youre still twisted as fuck. good luck with that
bldndprcd (9:52:45 PM): i do my best
(9:53:18 PM): could you at least tell me what i did to deserve you treating me like crap?
bldndprcd (9:53:28 PM): nothing actually
bldndprcd (9:53:32 PM): ya saved my life
bldndprcd (9:53:41 PM): you deserved the best
(9:54:08 PM): thats the best thanks i ever got, you know i dont know why i bother sometimes.......and it almost seems like a complete joke to you
(9:54:18 PM): you know i was actually kind of upset about it
bldndprcd (9:54:37 PM): really?
(9:55:52 PM): i bet you feel real proud of yourself now. well i dont hope it on you, but youll get it back some day, it always works like that
bldndprcd (9:56:12 PM): thanks for the warning
bldndprcd (9:56:30 PM): ill be watching out for my back
(9:57:08 PM): ............::pullshairout::
(9:57:10 PM): w/e
bldndprcd (9:57:18 PM): okee dokee
(10:00:06 PM): why are you such an asshole? god, i never did anything to you, ignored the fact that you completly backstabbed me and then you have to come back a few months later to make my blood boil again just once more. you must be really bored
bldndprcd (10:00:19 PM): hmm
bldndprcd (10:00:34 PM): ill stop talkin if im bothering you
(10:01:24 PM): never talk to me again please, unless you have good intentions, i dont remember asking to be treated like shit
bldndprcd (10:01:57 PM): hey, i had good intentions today
(10:03:00 PM): what?! could you at least say SOMETHING to verify that. i mean, what else am i supposed to think when u come out of nowhere asking me if my boyfriend is an asshole?!
bldndprcd (10:03:17 PM): whoa, i never said that
bldndprcd (10:03:29 PM): i said that people lead me that way
(10:03:30 PM): in not so many words
bldndprcd (10:03:36 PM): never said i felt that way
(10:05:05 PM): i dont know what way you felt, feel or will feel, the only thing i know is, i try being friends with you and all i can say is i try my best, doesnt work out so i let it go but you have to ask me mocking questions so you can answer me with "yea, uh huh and okee dokee" because you know it will piss me off!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY?!
(10:05:17 PM): i swear to fucking god ryan, i dont know what ur problem is
bldndprcd (10:05:33 PM): haha, im searching myself
(10:06:11 PM): real funny, everythings a goddamn joke, except when it comes to yourself
bldndprcd (10:12:26 PM): well, this convo didnt go as well as expected
(10:13:24 PM): well if you would like to restart this conversation i am more than willing. i will listen to what you have to say, if that is anything
bldndprcd (10:13:52 PM): hmm, i have nothing to say, as usual, and thats the problem
(10:16:05 PM): fine then
(10:19:30 PM): i would just like to know that theres no hard feelings, i never meant for anything bad and never expected it. i hope the best to you.
bldndprcd (10:19:44 PM): and i hope the best to you too
bldndprcd (10:19:48 PM): no hard feelings
bldndprcd (10:19:54 PM): i got what i deserve
(10:20:06 PM): oh really, and that is?
bldndprcd (10:20:25 PM): all this
(10:22:01 PM): all what? i mean, its not like you even feel bad, i mean, i just dont understand why, and now you think this is my revenge or something?
(10:22:17 PM): i was honestly upset, and its a big joke to you, i bet ur laughing right now
bldndprcd (10:22:29 PM): nope
bldndprcd (10:22:36 PM): just indifferent
(10:22:54 PM): you have no feelings do you?
bldndprcd (10:23:01 PM): not really
(10:23:04 PM): about anything but urself
(10:23:09 PM): then its serious
(10:23:11 PM): then youll cry
(10:23:19 PM): selfish bastard
bldndprcd (10:23:25 PM): haha, thanks
(10:23:42 PM): not a compliment, just the truth, you know it too, dont you
bldndprcd (10:23:58 PM): you speak the truth
(10:24:43 PM): maybe you would have been better off if i never gave half a shit if you lived or not....
bldndprcd (10:25:14 PM): yeah, we would both be doing better then
(10:26:05 PM): we both? haha, no, im just fine. im in love, i have people who ACTUALLY care about me, and i have emotion. i dont think youre capable of any of that
bldndprcd (10:26:22 PM): true
bldndprcd (10:27:44 PM): thats who i am
(10:31:21 PM): please go away
(10:31:26 PM): ur upsetting me
bldndprcd (10:31:34 PM): okay
Whoop de doo...... That's me....take it or leave it... Let me tell ya, you made the right decision.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Closure by Chevelle

Check this site out........www.poetrypoem.com/thurrwithnohurr..... Hope you enjoy!

Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: All Downhill From Here by NFG

Two Step
Dave Mathews Band, Hell yes!

Say, my love, I came to you with best intentions
You laid down and gave to me just what I'm seeking
Love, you drive me to distraction
Hey my love do you believe
That we might last a thousand years
Or more if not for this
Our flesh and blood
It ties you and me right up
Tie me down

Celebrate we will
Because life is short but sweet for certain
We're climbing two by two
To be sure these days continue
These things we cannot change

Hey, my love, you came to me
Like wine comes to this mouth
Grown tired of water all the time
You quench my heart and you quench my mind

Celebrate we will
Because life is short but
Sweet for certain
We're climbing two by two
To be sure these days continue
The things we cannot
Celebrate, you and me
Climbing two by two, to be sure
These days continue
Things we cannot change

Oh, my love I came to you
With best intentions
You laid down and gave to me
Just what I'm seeking

Celebrate we will
Because life is short
But sweet for certain
We're climbing two by two
To be sure these days continue
Things we cannot change
Things we cannot change

Today was an interesting day. Took Mizz S out to the mall, then to Bell Towers, then to Rotary Park. Had a splendid time....and Mozzna gave her permission to do whateva she wants with me....Who knows? Then I went to the hospital to work... Some people were fun, others weren't. What more to say? Oh yeah, I need to make meself a cool icon. Thats what I'll do now.

MizeS, come and get me.........

I can't bring myself to write this journal entry.......So I won't.... Please keep Kate and I in your thoughts and prayers.....we just might need it.

I dream that someday we'll be able
To look back on this together and say
It was for the best and that it
Made us stronger today, stronger today

There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say
We're better than ever

And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cuz I need to say
Hello again

I'm so afraid that if I wait too long
You'll never look in my eyes again
With a look that gave me strength
And gave me hope and made me feel I've inspired

There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say
We're better than ever

And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cuz I need to say
Hello again

Hello again
Hello again
Hello again

There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say
We're better than ever

And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cuz I need to say
Hello again

There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say
We're better than ever

And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cuz I need to say
Hello again

I just noticed today a skill that I am very good at, yet not too happy about. I realized how good I am at making people pass through my life. No particular situation, just in general.


I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be

And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you

Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Cuz I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice

And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say

So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me, is it you

Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do

To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

What is it I've got to say
So why are you running away?
To make you admit you're afraid
Why are you running away?

I'm not too sure how I feel right now. I stayed up last night til 2 talking with my uncle about life. He has the idea that I should be nice to everyone and give myself for the better of others. Fuck that. No one in my family outside my sis, mom, and dad know about my depression. Now some of them think I'm pretty screwed up. If only I could tell them... but the way my family works is that everyone is supposed to conform to normality. Everything else is expected to be swept under the rug. Hmm, I wonder why I even worry so much about it... In reality, I don't give a shit what they think. My care of others has been in a constant decline as of lately.

God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in my shoes
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to choose
Then you really might know what it's like
I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green
I stroked daddies dimes at least a couple of times
Before I broke their heart
You know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends on where you start

This song is the story of my life, present and past. My Florida life is the joyous life I have now. The past life (Connecticut) is what this song relates back to. I can't believe how accurate this is....


This is my life, it’s not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
These are my dreams, that I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me, cuz I must be sleeping

Now that we’re here, it’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here, it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I’m not ashamed
To be the person that I am today

These are my words, that I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing okay
And this is a smile, I’ve never shown before
Somebody shake me, cuz I must be sleeping

Now that we’re here, it’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here, it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I’m not ashamed
To be the person that I am today

I’m so afraid of waking, please don’t shake me
Afraid of waking, please don’t shake me

Now that we’re here, it’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All the mistakes, one life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here, it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I’m not ashamed
To be the person that I am today

--13 percent of women admit they date guys who are jerks because they think they can change them.
--36 percent say they go out with them because being with a schmuck makes the sweet moments even sweeter.
--77 percent of the ladies polled said it bothers them when their guy checks out other women, but the rest aren't bothered because they know men "can't help it."

look at this fucked up story i found online...what are the chances...=/

Chapter 11 (Continued)

Mohammed nodded. "Yeah." His mind was working on what was going on.
Sonny frowned. "Damn...Brett, what kind of name is that? Is he white?"
Mohammed shook his head. "No. He's black."
"What's on your mind?" Sonny asked.
"Nothing...well...I mean I'm trying to figure this out."
"Well can you figure it out over a beer?"
Mohammed smiled. "Sure."
"Then let's get a shower and change." Sonny said.
As Mohammed went with Sonny he still had a nagging feeling something wasn't right but he would get to the bottom of it.

Dalziel was eating Brett's ass like a champion. His wet tongue went from his nuts to his ass and with each lick Brett arched his back while he kept his hand on the top of Dalziel's head urging him on. It was great being back with Dalziel. He had handled Jamal and as far as he was concerned there was nothing to be worried about anymore. Brett's hips moved up and down in a slow rhythm and Dalziel knew that if Brett was as horny as he was he would be ready for anything.
Dalziel spread Brett's hard asscheeks and ran his tongue along the tight and smooth entrance. Brett jerked at the first thrilling feeling of the hot tongue licking his ass hole. It felt great. Dalziel had a masterful tongue. Mohammed couldn't hang with his skill in the tongue and eating ass department. Dalziel's tongue pushed past Brett's hot sphincter. He plunged his tongue inside the brother's rectum, up as far as it could reach. The funky aroma and the hot sweat between Brett's buns only served to excite him more. He reached underneath Brett's stomach and took his palpitating, dripping dick in his hand.
Brett's throbbing organ was slimy with precum and it was easy for Dalziel to slide his hand up and down the full three inches. Brett was gasping for air as the twin sensations of Dalziel's tongue in his ass and his hand jacking his dick worked him into a frenzy. It felt so fucking good but he was ready for that big dick in his ass. He wanted to feel all of him inside of him. He looked back at Dalziel.
"Stop fucking around and fuck this good ass."
Dalziel smiled as he reached around and pulled out and put on a condom. He took his hard dick and slid it slowly into Brett's hot hole. The model moaned and groaned and pushed his ass against Dalziel's dick cause Dalziel to let out a moan as well.
When Brett felt Dalziel's nuts against his ass he knew he was in deep. He liked that.
"FUCK THIS ASS!" Brett growled.
Dalziel was ready and able to oblige. He rammed his dick deep inside Brett's hot and tasty ass. Yeah, he was glad he was hitting this again and he was getting the pay off for changing his website and helping him deal with his lover's kid. This was the best ass he had fucked in awhile and this motherfucker could suck a dirty dick with no shame and no hesitation. It felt good..too damn good and he had to calm down or he was going to blow his load too soon.
"AH YEAH...FUCK ME!" Brett said knowing that talking like that turned Dalziel on and sure enough Dalziel pumped harder and stronger.
"SHIT! YEAH..WORK THAT ASS!" Dalziel snarled.
"DICK ME DADDY! DICK ME GOOD!" Brett shouted. He didn't care who heard him. Right now they were fucking in Dalziel's bedroom with his windows open. He wanted to fuck Dalziel in the bed he shared with Mohammed with Jamal sleeping not far down the hall with the door opened. That would be the big thrill.
As Dalziel pumped his thick dick into Brett's ass, Brett got a vision of Jamal hearing Brett and Dalziel freaking in his father's bed. The look on his face would be priceless and the thought of it turned Brett on so much that he knew he was going to cum.
"FUCK ME HARDER! HARDER YOU BLACK SONOFBITCH MOTHERFUCKER!!!!" Brett screamed.
"YEAH BITCH! TALK THAT SHIT!" Dalziel screamed back as his toes curled and he felt like he was about to cum.
"YOU BLACK MOTHERFUCKER...FUCK THIS GODDAMN ASS...FUCK IT!"
Dalziel was having a fit. "DAMN! DAMN MOTHERFUCKER..YEAH!" Dalziel pumped harder and harder and as he felt himself ready to come he bit down on Brett's shoulder.
"OOOOW! YEAH...FUCK ME! FUCK ME!"
"SHIT..I'M GONNA CUM....I'M GONNA CUM..."
"CUM IN ME MOTHERFUCKER! CUM IN ME!"
Dalziel screamed out as his hot cum shot out of his dick. Brett could feel the heat of the cum through the condom and he blew his load.
"AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH! AHAAAAAAAAAAAAA! YESSSSSSS!" Brett screamed as his own cum shot out of him.
"SSSSSSSSHIIIIIIIITTTTT!" Dalziel roared as he came in Brett's ass.

Dalziel and Brett lay naked in each other arms smoking joints and snorting coke.
"Damn," Dalziel said as he inhaled. "You a freaky motherfucker."
"And you like all that I do but we have more to do and more places to do them in." Brett said as he snorted some coke.
"Shit...motherfucker you making my dick hard again." Dalziel said.
"Then we can fuck again...at my place."
Dalziel sat up. "Say what?"
"I want you to fuck me in my bed." Brett said.
"Damn you are a freak." Dalziel said.
Brett smiled. "Yeah..I'm a freak. So you wanna freak this or what?"
Dalziel puffed his joint and gripped Brett's ass. "OH HELL FUCKING YEAH!"

blondrebelrider5 (10:50:57 PM): is the truth wat u want?
bldndprcd (10:51:06 PM): i dont give a shit
bldndprcd (10:51:22 PM): i was just bored, so i added a little excitement
blondrebelrider5 (10:51:51 PM): do u still want it or not
bldndprcd (10:52:00 PM): sure, say what you want to say
blondrebelrider5 (10:52:55 PM): u put so mch time and energy into interrogating my friends that i think that u should at least get the truth from the source.
bldndprcd (10:53:07 PM): hmm, makes sense
bldndprcd (10:53:22 PM): maybe cuz when i asked you, you wouldnt say anything?
bldndprcd (10:53:26 PM): huh?
blondrebelrider5 (10:54:12 PM): true
blondrebelrider5 (10:54:24 PM): cause then i didnt wanna hurt ur feelings
blondrebelrider5 (10:54:36 PM): but no ive changed my mind
bldndprcd (10:54:48 PM): good
bldndprcd (10:54:51 PM): i can take it
bldndprcd (10:55:08 PM): i would rather hear the most painful truth than the best lie
blondrebelrider5 (10:55:25 PM): so wat do u say?
blondrebelrider5 (10:55:38 PM): so ive heard
bldndprcd (10:55:56 PM): tell me what you want to say
blondrebelrider5 (10:55:58 PM): mmk, lets see
bldndprcd (10:56:01 PM): and ill shut up
blondrebelrider5 (10:56:17 PM): its like, yes i was havin probs / my mon
blondrebelrider5 (10:56:29 PM): *mom
blondrebelrider5 (10:56:41 PM): but ur also really really ... ugly
bldndprcd (10:56:47 PM): haha, nice
blondrebelrider5 (10:57:13 PM): it wasl ike, there was this veil over u and the more i got to no u that more i "grew apart"
bldndprcd (10:57:28 PM): yeeehaw
blondrebelrider5 (10:57:32 PM): ur so like, placid and timid, and sensative that i cant stand it
blondrebelrider5 (10:58:05 PM): the whole idea of the whacha me callit lessons was for real
blondrebelrider5 (10:58:23 PM): u dudn ttake ne lead or roles, and i hate teachin
bldndprcd (10:58:48 PM): true
blondrebelrider5 (10:58:50 PM): and like, u wer all like, whaTEVER MAKES U HAPPY MAKES ME HAppy
blondrebelrider5 (10:59:01 PM): and u had no idea what the hell to do b/c i had nuttin to do
bldndprcd (10:59:27 PM): fo sho
blondrebelrider5 (10:59:38 PM): so u left me to like, do nuttin
bldndprcd (10:59:46 PM): see, the journal entry worked
blondrebelrider5 (10:59:51 PM): like u sed, i was a god and u were nuttin
blondrebelrider5 (11:00:17 PM): yeah, i also took 6 teylaenol and 100 mg of straterrs when i got homer
bldndprcd (11:00:42 PM): today?
blondrebelrider5 (11:00:45 PM): and now im pissed at life, in general, espwecially u and derek
blondrebelrider5 (11:00:53 PM): yes u bastsardf
bldndprcd (11:01:08 PM): nice
bldndprcd (11:01:12 PM): how did it feel
blondrebelrider5 (11:01:17 PM): no, not nice at all
blondrebelrider5 (11:01:28 PM): it diodnt get high, it was required
bldndprcd (11:01:52 PM): ah
blondrebelrider5 (11:02:14 PM): i spent 6 fukin hrs makin a tackroom for my and katie's shit today in 103 degree heatt
blondrebelrider5 (11:02:26 PM): and i cam ehoimae all piswsed
bldndprcd (11:03:18 PM): well, i have to be heading to bed now
blondrebelrider5 (11:03:20 PM): and josh and i didnt talk that much to day, so that got me mad, and now u bring upo this im a peice of shiot for not tellin u ne thingf
blondrebelrider5 (11:03:38 PM): even though u went and asked my frienda newayz
blondrebelrider5 (11:03:40 PM): ehind my back
bldndprcd (11:03:57 PM): cuz i couldnt get it in front of you back
blondrebelrider5 (11:04:18 PM): ur such a basterd...
blondrebelrider5 (11:04:18 PM): huh?
bldndprcd (11:04:31 PM): well, im tired, im off to bed
blondrebelrider5 (11:04:32 PM): o0o0oh, ummm..no
blondrebelrider5 (11:04:45 PM): no ur not
blondrebelrider5 (11:04:48 PM): im not done
bldndprcd (11:04:54 PM): whateva
bldndprcd (11:04:58 PM): tell my mom that
blondrebelrider5 (11:05:01 PM): same to u
bldndprcd (11:05:05 PM): shes yeling fo me to go to bed
blondrebelrider5 (11:05:48 PM): whateva
bldndprcd (11:05:57 PM): haha, okay, sweet dreams

I fuckin hate life today.....sometimes not being noticed does that to a person. Whatever.....I just want to get through this summer and get back to school.... what a relief that will be....this summer is gonna kill me.....just have to sort through the bullshit (priya) yet still retain the angels (rachel, kate, erica). that is my goal.

Current Mood: rejected
Current Music: "Black Dog" by Led Zeppelin

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

I heard you’re doing okay
But I want you to know
I’m a dick, I’m addicted to you
I can’t pretend I don’t care
When you don’t think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy
But you left anyway

I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addicted to you
Now it’s over, can’t forget what you said
And I never, wanna do this again
Heartbreaker!
Heartbreaker!
Heartbreaker!

Since the day I met you
And after all we’ve been through
I'm still a dick, I’m addicted to you
I think you know that it’s true
I’d run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this
I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addicted to you
Now it’s over, can’t forget what you said
And I never, wanna do this again
Heartbreaker!
Heartbreaker!
Heartbreaker!

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don’t know why I’m still waiting
I can’t make you mine

I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addicted to you

I’m trying to forget that
I’m addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I’m addicted to you
Now it’s over, can’t forget what you said
And I never, wanna do this again
Heartbreaker!
Heartbreaker!
Heartbreaker!

I'm addicted to you, heartbreaker

sup it's the thurr...i am the coolest thing since velcro shoes yo...oh and rachel, she's the coolest. she's my boss, she owns me, and i devote myself fully to the mancow cause. rachel= God.




haha...sorry thurr, i had to, you were still signed in when you left.

Fuck you all. Fuck everyone in my life, one and all. My fuckin meds worked for a week and a half, but they aint doing shit right now. I gave life a fuckin shot, I can honestly say that. I held my feelings in too much.

A couple word...this doesn't apply to all, just those who feel guilty after reading. You will know who you are.

I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became cuz -

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down

Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say

Never again no
No never again

Chorus
'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow

Never again no
No never again

Chorus

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's OK
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again

Chorus